I have to admit like many people from my generation, the bombardment of advertisements and my natural inclination to the material world has made my relationship with $$$$ *coughs* has allowed me to create a fantasy land where $$ was expendable and is made to be spent on my every want and "need". I've also seen money being used as a means of manipulation of other peoples time, feelings and actions, and resolved at a really young age that money would never have that kind of control over me.
- Are you overly impartial to it's presence? (act like you don't need it)
- When its not around are you angry and agitate it and get aggressive with it to come back?
- Do you communicate it with it regularly and make sure it's balances and not over stretched?
- Do you protect it or do you have the need to control it?
- Are you aware of how it works and where it comes from?
- Am I honest about how I spend it?
- or how it effects the relationship that you have with other people in your environment?
I began to access whether or not I wanted to continue doing the work that I've been doing as my primary source of income or if I should tap into more capitalistic endeavors to keep up with the "times." Which in turn made me evaluate my personal budget and my commitment to my pet project of Lady Bird SF. Which in turn made me look at the personal relationships that I was developing with other people questioning if their character was something I wanted to have in my life during this portion of my journey to establish personal stability, realizing that peoples presence could be a energy exhausting greater liabilities to me. (Yeah Yeah I know it's like WWIII in my cranium)